SILLY ME!

MY MISTAKE! I FORGOT REALITY! NO ONE that's in charge of my finances REALLY cares about me. amy called me this afternoon and told me she asked brit the cost of going to mexico and she said it was like 30 thousand if i remember right. so i don't know what the hell i'm gonna do for my 40th birthday. NOBODY CARES THOUGH! i could cut it short at 39 and NOBODY WOULD CARE! of course my mom would play victim for attention as usual.. so i don't really feel like her acting like she actually cared about me to get sympathy/attention. i'm also thinking that amy would try to go around my wishes to give my brother everything else of mine remaining and either try to take the money for herself or the state.. or maybe both. so i don't really feel like enriching either of those parties because of my demise. i'm sure amy is talking outta her ass because i'm pretty sure i remember her saying a trip to mexico was alright and she tried to tell me that i already just took a trip to boston this year- she finds the ability to gaslight me into thinking i already took a trip this year just so it appears she's ACTUALLY doing her job professionally and enriching me. luckily- i shut it down because i suspected she'd try to pull that outta her ass, so i checked facebook and my cell phone pictures for the dates of the boston pictures before she tried to talk to me like i was stupid and i'd just believe everything she said.. just so she knows- gaslighting IS a form of psychological abuse. so she's causing me psychological abuse for her own benefit.. WHAT A SURPRISE! *rolls eyes* oo! something MORE to talk to my psychologist about! maybe she can help me make sure i have someone who ACTUALLY cares about me handling my finances.